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Taking a Chance on Faith

Taking a Chance on Faith

English: "Faith" and "Hope"
English: “Faith” and “Hope” in stained glass, Llandenny church (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

With a lot of prayer, we are going to try a visit away from the safety and comfort that being in close proximity to the facility provides us.  This is about taking a chance.

We are going to take a chance on faith that he is stable.  This weekend, we are going to travel to the city to get David and take him for a 6 hour pass.  That pass isn’t going to bring him home.  Rather we are traveling to see his sister and give her some things that she forgot when she was home for Easter from college.

A chance.

I don’t know what we are going to feel.  I don’t know how to feel about this.  I just know that with deep prayer and meditation we are going to try.  David had a rough day yesterday and hit one of his peers, so I am under no illusions that we will see perfect behavior.  I’d settle for him just being an average teenager.  It’s a chance that we are willingly going to take.

I don’t know if this will bring him closer to coming home or not.  This is about a chance.

A chance for hope.

I am putting my faith in the people who have been helping him through this difficult period in his life.  Are we wrong to have hope?

Whether you are a person of faith, a believer in strong positive thoughts, or someone who prefers not to share how they feel, please keep us in your thoughts.  Pray that we have a good family visit this weekend.  That our time together will begin the process of repairing the damage his behaviors and our reactions to them have caused, caused a rift to develop in our home.  He deserves better from us, and we deserve better from ourselves and from him.

I have to believe that he is meant for more than this.  And that through our trials, we are also meant for more.

Thank you.

 

Fear and Company – Reacting to Attachment

David is doing well.  But then, he always does fairly well while he is in care. We do regular visits, when we go to the city, we try to at least take him out for a meal.  We also spend time with him at the facility and when we do our supply shopping, he goes… Continue Reading

the cynic in me

Cynic. A person who believes that only selfishness motivates human actions and who disbelieves in or minimizes selfless acts or disinterested points of view. Cynicism. The attitude or beliefs of a cynic. I spoke briefly with David’s doctor today.  Seems David is doing very well.  As well as anyone has ever seen him behave. Which… Continue Reading

Anxiety – Internal Struggles with oneself

Hi, this is a post about Anxiety. I don’t know about triggers for anxiety, but you should be aware of that before reading further if you are easily triggered. thank you for reading. Long time no post. Seriously though with David in the facility there hasn’t been a lot to say.  Especially because I don’t… Continue Reading

he is a known liar. why believe him?

I get calls from David.  Complaining about this or that.  Today he was refusing to go to school. After explaining why he didn’t want to go to school, I let David know that he can’t hide from whatever or whomever he thinks is bothering him.  And that he should go to school. I figured that… Continue Reading

Erasing The Stigma That Comes With Mental Illness

Erasing the Stigma

While it may seem easy for me to say something like “we should not stigmatize the mentally ill for the mental illnesses that they have”, because in reality, the mentally ill have no more control over their illness than someone with a neuropathy, or cancer.  David, for example, didn’t ask to have mental illnesses.  He… Continue Reading

Communication – yes, it is important.

I make no secret.  I love to communicate with people. When it comes to David, I like to receive as much as I can via email, as it lets me have a documented record of what facilities and I see to each other. However. If my son has done something that necessitates intervention by the… Continue Reading

Please document his actions and attitudes

David is on a track to potential discharge in March of 2016.  I won’t go in to the ins and outs of his program. I don’t necessarily agree with discharge at this point. David has been having difficulties the last two days.  And a couple of times over the last month. If his care and… Continue Reading