For so long, I lived to care for David. To see to his needs. To make sure that he didn’t interfere with the needs of others.
Today was a hard day. I spent the day with my daughters. I forced myself to walk around the mall for a little while.
Everything hurts. I never really paid attention to the affect that David had on my health. I feel so ANGRY.
I remember. and everything was worth it. Because David is my son, I would give everything I am for him.
There are times when I step down on my left leg and wonder if it is there.
I am struggling to get into the van a little. the left leg always seems to get hung up. I actually have to grab it by the knee and move it into the van on days when I am really tired.
My oldest noticed today that I am not dragging my left foot as much. I am making a conscious effort to not drag it, since she noticed a couple of weeks ago that I drag that foot when I walk.
I guess, with David out of the house and in a safe place, I need to focus on me for a while.
Why does that thought make me feel guilty?
- According to David… (whynotfathers.com)
- In Sickness and in Health (whynotfathers.com)
- We Brought David Home (whynotfathers.com)
- Munchausen by internet can be bad for your health forum | David D Feldman (guardian.co.uk)